18 minutes ago
I was watching my kid become a third generation swimmer today and couldn’t help but think, damn, my dad would be loving this. this would have been his perfect father’s day. i don’t share about him often, it seems like a lifetime ago that he was here and there are few people in my life now that knew him. he’s missed my entire adult life and all my graduations, engagement, wedding, kids, all the big stuff good and bad, but i’ve been missing him like crazy lately. and i miss him especially in the moments where i know he’d be so proud of his grandkids.
i had the greatest dad, the guy who made it to every game, meet, performance, show, and a whole lot of the practices for everything i ever took on too. he not only made it, he volunteered, and practically ran half of it all with my mom on top of his full time job, his own swimming, hobbies and all those thousands of hours he found to play catch and shoot pucks with us just for fun. he would have had so much pride cheering for ayami at the pool, or watching kiyomi take up t-ball this year. i doubt he’d leave the arena all winter and although he wouldn’t understand anymore about it than when i did it, he’d get a lot of excitement out of watching the kids bring their flips and tricks home from the gym. he’d casually roll his eyes if they picked up a volleyball and that new basketball net in the backyard would be his new stomping ground. i know he would have given anything for the sing-a-longs and would love breaking out his guitar. i was lucky, he gave it all to my brother and i, and i love giving it all to them now like he taught us. i still wish he was here though, to love the heck out of those kids with me.
happy fathers day dad, i miss you ❤️ they say the first father’s day brings the biggest smiles and i believe it every time i look at this photo from his.