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I’ve always struggled with my masculinity. i didn’t say my sexuality, i said my masculinity! there is a big difference. there’s absolutely nothing wrong with being gay, i just don’t swing that way.
i never felt like i was manly enough, but always wanted to be the rough and tough kid. but i was born fair skinned, blonde flowing gorgeous hair (🤣) blue eyes and super skinny. i graduated hs at 135lbs and 5’10” and didn’t get “hair down there “👇🏼until i was a junior in hs! and couldn’t grow facial hair until like last year, and now it’s nearly all grey. i went hunting with my grandpa when i was 17 and cried after shooting a bunny rabbit. 🐰 😢
it’s no wonder that the day i turned 18 i drove straight to the tattoo shop in olathe on sante fe (the ink slinger) and got my first of many manly tattoos. this was i would of course look tougher than i felt. a little side note here, my “manly” first tattoo was mini-mouse in a pink dress.
so there you have it, i had a counseling session recently and this is what came of it! i now know why i have tattoos, beside just loving them and being an artist, i wanted to look masculine. you know, a tough guy! a cool dude. a badass. a real mans man. because deep on the inside i didn’t feel like much of a man, so i wanted to look like one on the outside.
so do i regret my tattoos?
no f*cking way! i love ever last one of them. they each tell a story and have become a part of my very identity. i’m known for them. and when i die i am taking them with me. and if there’s a heaven i better f*cking be able to have them there!
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