All of my life, the people that i cared about told me that everything i thought meant something really meant nothing at all. it affected me so, that i have become numb. i've been careful to give my love and rarely ever do for fear that it won't be reciprocated. for fear that it isn't love at all, that my perception must be warped, for who could possibly love me? and so i've resolved to not show love, to simply not love. only, i fail. they always see through the veil, for these walls i imagined i put up are not walls at all.