8 hours ago
Story by anonymous: "today my friend, a cis white woman, told me, a q***r asian american filipino, to not exoticize my friend, a g*y black man.
tell me how many things are wrong in this sentence.
i don't know why, but it hurt me. quite a lot. like a burn on your skin that has left a nasty blister and continues to sting long after it has made contact.
although i laughed it off with a joke it still hurts. it brings back every horrible memory as a child, a teenager, a young adult of the times when i have been oppressed. whether i was aware of it at the time or not.
when i took a trip to london. everyone under the assumption that i couldn't speak english because of my skin.
being whitened with a lighter foundation so that i can seem more desirable in a show that took place in my own country.
my first conference with my acting teacher at the end of my freshman year where she pointed out that i was the minority amongst my peers and that i had to work harder than anybody to make it.
my last conference with another teacher saying the exact same thing.
the incredulous faces and insensitive comments made by my own friends when they learn about something "quirky" or "odd" about my culture.
and now, being here, in "the greatest city in the world", a melting p*t of nationalities of cultures of ideas of interracial friendships, i can't help but feel even more hyper aware of my skin. of how people first view me. make a judgement of who i am without even knowing me. fetishize me because of my large eyes. straight black hair. perfectly tanned skin.
i never had a problem with my skin.
the colour of my skin never bothered me.
i never had the urge to change it.
lighten it. darken it. alter it in any way.
it was the idea behind my skin that causes the problem.
a problem i am not responsible for.
a problem that has now been handed to me.
an unbearable weight.
one that i carry with me every day." (read full story at www.yellowmellowgirlblog.wordpress.com
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