3 hours ago
By now, if you know me, you know that i’m always trying to achieve that next goal. this week i came to learn of an amazing opportunity, but i learned about it three days before a very intense deadline, which required weeks worth of work. it was a long shot, and although it required a lot of work with no guarantee, i still went for it. after several hours researching and writing this week, i missed the deadline by three hours. i was surprised how zen i was about it all. i think my yoga practice is really having a deep effect on me. it reminded me of the monks that spend weeks constructing these beautiful sand mandalas and just when they’re done, they wipe them all away and start over.
today in yoga we were going into a simple side bend and the teacher gave us the option to go into pigeon pose, but he asked us to be mindful of our choices. to make sure we weren’t chasing the pose. in life we go from chasing one goal to the next, but often we don’t take the time to enjoy and appreciate each individual accomplishment, just like each individual pose, each beautiful mandala. this really resonated with me. even as i finished the last document and looked up at the clock, and i saw that i had missed the deadline. i wanted to stay there- be in the pose. appreciate the effort that i had made with no expectation or attachment to any end. i wanted to be grateful for the opportunity to try because the effort was still the same. at midnight, i did not stop because the deadline had passed. i kept going and i finished three hours later because there was something beautiful in the experience itself. just like the destruction of the mandala does not take away from the effort that it took to create it. it wasn’t the guarantee that i was chasing it was the possibility to dream, to try, to devote my effort to something that i deeply believed in. because as creative souls, we put our craft into the world.- what happens after that is up to the universe.