I saw some posts this morning i wish i never had. a part of me always wanted this to happen because of all those terrible moments. but i never thought i had to face it. i knew this was coming. yet, i wasn't prepared to face it. suddenly it's feeling so empty. i feel sad and yes, i couldn't control myself and i cried. like always. i hope things will change from now. they have to. i hope i can learn to love again.