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@raina.daze

raina.daze
•• tRaNsFoRmAtiOn TuEsDaY ••
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I struggled with substance & alcohol abuse for nearly 10 years; switching addictions made it easier to lie to myself. I hung around either enablers (good people, simply lost) or “friends” that sat in judgement of my habits instead of talking to me. 
I’m thankful I’m still ALIVE! I reflect on how many dangerous ass situations I put myself because of addiction, poor mental health, and denial. The fatality rate for adults under 25 in my hometown in pretty appalling...I could have easily been another name on that list. The sad part is that no one learns/changes when this happens..someone dies, everyone drinks and bumps lines to cope with the pain, and the cycle of addiction continues..
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It hasn’t been an easy ride - what I choose to share on social media doesn’t accurately depict my entire healing process. Moving to a city was very life changing and eye opening...a  hard reality check I surely needed. Breaking away from fast food, alcohol, and drugs is only ONE part! Building healthy habits is the other! Create routine, listen to your body, learn to manage your stress with healthy outlets 🌈 Start by surrounding yourself with like minded individuals who share similar goals and interests and detach from toxic friendships and relationships. Spend time with YOU! Self reflect, communicate, APPRECIATE!
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Hard work will pay off if you love yourself enough to let the things go that no longer serve you 💜
1 3 11 minutes ago
•• transformation tuesday ••
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i struggled with substance & alcohol abuse for nearly 10 years; switching addictions made it easier to lie to myself. i hung around either enablers (good people, simply lost) or “friends” that sat in judgement of my habits instead of talking to me.
i’m thankful i’m still alive! i reflect on how many dangerous a*s situations i put myself because of addiction, poor mental health, and denial. the fatality rate for adults under 25 in my hometown in pretty appalling...i could have easily been another name on that list. the sad part is that no one learns/changes when this happens..someone dies, everyone drinks and bumps lines to cope with the pain, and the cycle of addiction continues..
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it hasn’t been an easy ride - what i choose to share on social media doesn’t accurately depict my entire healing process. moving to a city was very life changing and eye opening...a hard reality check i surely needed. breaking away from fast food, alcohol, and drugs is only one part! building healthy habits is the other! create routine, listen to your body, learn to manage your stress with healthy outlets 🌈 start by surrounding yourself with like minded individuals who share similar goals and interests and detach from toxic friendships and relationships. spend time with you! self reflect, communicate, appreciate!
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hard work will pay off if you love yourself enough to let the things go that no longer serve you 💜

@sparberry68

sparberry68
Happy birthday to me 😎! #birthday#flowers#50#denial #imnotoldyet #enoovanha#foreveryoung
4 13 1 hour ago
Happy birthday to me 😎! #birthday#flowers#50#denial #imnotoldyet #enoovanha#foreveryoung

@she_is_of_the_woods

she_is_of_the_woods
122 568 1 hour ago
"your words triggered me!"is how quite a few angry message sent began this morn as they spiraled into full on rants about me"needing to understand"that it's no longer#acceptable in our society to ya know be talking about our#experiences in life because it could be someone's trigger

let me tell you what those messages actually said between the lines"set down, be quiet,conform,don't make me have to think about let alone face my own shit" that is literally what we do every time we"call someone out"for"triggering"us.we rob them of their voice,their experience,their#genuinehealing because we don't like to be#madetofeel
so it's no surprise that my live video yesterday where i talked on not only how dangerous&damaging#benzomeds are but the long drawn out#hell it takes to get off of them that millions of people go through "triggered" people who don't want to hear that their nightly #xanaxcocktail isn't going to end in fucking#relaxation
but here's the thing about triggers,no ones liable for your#emotional reaction to their f*****g existence.that s***s on you.that's you wanting to hide from your own#feelings & demanding the#world help you subsist in#denial of your own unresolved issues/traumas and that's outright a disgusting sense of privilege.that the world should cater to your false sense of#comfortability
listen as a person who has lived through sincere f*****g trauma in my life,enough that i'm gana be able to write not 1 but 3ish books with just a handful of events in each i know what it's like to live with severec-ptsd&encounter triggers

i also know how much power we give away when we hide from them&how much#healing we steal from others when we ask them to do the same thing for our accord.sure there are times were i can't read someone's words,have to unfollow until i'm ready to face it but that's my s**t to deal with in no way do i have the right to attack that person in their existence,experience,#personalspace they choose to share in for their own healing

let me tell you something,you are your own trigger.you decide how much power to give a trauma.no it's not easy to face these things but i promise it will bring more#peace than swallowing a pill does!

@fifififi_fififif

fifififi_fififif
Oh that's why I'm alone 😒
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#denial #dontkidyourself
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Oh that's why i'm alone 😒
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#denial #dontkidyourself

@steelwerksextreme

steelwerksextreme
I promise you won’t feel a thing ❌🚫❌😉
5 107 2 hours ago
I promise you won’t feel a thing ❌🚫❌😉

@reijnhoudt_the_fox

reijnhoudt_the_fox
• My struggle •

Here we go lovelies #shinechallenge hosted by @thelunaceleste🌛Share something unique about yourself or a challenge you worked through. *This is a VERY long post*

My sh*t is mine, other peoples sh*t is theirs and sometimes you can help each other through or you need to respect someone’s process. For real, butt out.

I was always the one offering solutions, trying to mend what wasn’t broken and getting frustrated friends and loved ones didn’t listen at times. Little did I know back then that I had to move through some major issues myself... That high horse wasn’t keeping me out of my troubles at all.

There were some serious believe systems that needed to be debunked. The one that nearly killed my marriage was that men and emotions are weak (yes guys, I was in a VERY dark place). I cried a lot, I went to therapy, I nearly went into burn out but in the rubble of the tower that crashed down on top of me I found my heart 💜 My Love, that I was keeping hostage because I was so afraid to lose it. Even though I was married to an amazing man who is stronger than I could ever give him credit for, I did not see until I did.

The tough cookie attitude served me at the time I lost my dad and had my first on again off again relationship that lasted 4(!!!!) years. By surpassing the hurt I could show the world I was “strong” and I could handle my sh*t without slowing down. It came back to bite me in the ass a good 10 years later.

By acknowledging my own role in the healing process, to admit I needed to heal in the first place, talking about it with my husband and my mother, embracing my emotions and giving them space I feel much more centered, more balanced and more happy. Hell, a good cry feels amazing! 
So this girl spreading the love, promoting the power of softness and  trying to see the lessons and humor in all situations has had her tour round her very own abyss. From time to time I jump back in again but what I learned about my journey is this: 
My sh*t is mine, other peoples sh*t is theirs and sometimes you can help each other through or you need to respect someone’s process. For real, butt out 🖤
4 20 2 hours ago
• my struggle •

here we go lovelies #shinechallenge hosted by @thelunaceleste🌛share something unique about yourself or a challenge you worked through. *this is a very long post*

my sh*t is mine, other peoples sh*t is theirs and sometimes you can help each other through or you need to respect someone’s process. for real, b**t out.

i was always the one offering solutions, trying to mend what wasn’t broken and getting frustrated friends and loved ones didn’t listen at times. little did i know back then that i had to move through some major issues myself... that high horse wasn’t keeping me out of my troubles at all.

there were some serious believe systems that needed to be debunked. the one that nearly killed my marriage was that men and emotions are weak (yes guys, i was in a very dark place). i cried a lot, i went to therapy, i nearly went into burn out but in the rubble of the tower that crashed down on top of me i found my heart 💜 my love, that i was keeping hostage because i was so afraid to lose it. even though i was married to an amazing man who is stronger than i could ever give him credit for, i did not see until i did.

the tough cookie attitude served me at the time i lost my dad and had my first on again off again relationship that lasted 4(!!!!) years. by surpassing the hurt i could show the world i was “strong” and i could handle my sh*t without slowing down. it came back to bite me in the a*s a good 10 years later.

by acknowledging my own role in the healing process, to admit i needed to heal in the first place, talking about it with my husband and my mother, embracing my emotions and giving them space i feel much more centered, more balanced and more happy. hell, a good cry feels amazing!
so this girl spreading the love, promoting the power of softness and trying to see the lessons and humor in all situations has had her tour round her very own abyss. from time to time i jump back in again but what i learned about my journey is this:
my sh*t is mine, other peoples sh*t is theirs and sometimes you can help each other through or you need to respect someone’s process. for real, b**t out 🖤

@lily.mullen

lily.mullen
MOLLY FREAKING SULLIVAN!!! THE LEGEND!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! 18!!!! u r a party ANIMAL and i love being bffs (nh) i cant wait for all the adventures we’ll go on this year and all the bloody noses you’ll probably have along the way 😩 no homo but i’m emo as heck that you’re gonna be states away next year and i’m still in #denial but we have that black and yellow vibe and you’ll kill it as a hawkeye ily nh live it up today on your bday you crazy kid!! pipe it up today
#onelikeequalsonerespect #mollyisthecoolestpersoniknow #bestdadever
1 198 3 hours ago
Molly freaking sullivan!!! the legend!! happy birthday!!!! 18!!!! u r a party animal and i love being bffs (nh) i cant wait for all the adventures we’ll go on this year and all the bloody noses you’ll probably have along the way 😩 no h**o but i’m emo as heck that you’re gonna be states away next year and i’m still in #denial but we have that black and yellow vibe and you’ll k**l it as a hawkeye ily nh live it up today on your bday you crazy kid!! pipe it up today
#onelikeequalsonerespect #mollyisthecoolestpersoniknow #bestdadever

@tobinevernottobi

tobinevernottobi
It's rare to see a beautiful speck of green in this town.
2 17 3 hours ago
It's rare to see a beautiful speck of green in this town.

@sweetheartindiira

sweetheartindiira
It's the universal law of compensation... You can't do epic shit with basic thinkers. Act in accordance to the level of blessings and success you want in your life. Learn how to say NO to anything that compromises your growth. #denial #selfdiscipline #epicmovement #ruthless #focused #determined #motivation #farfrombasic #moveforward #responsibility #accountability #takecontrol #positivenergy #morningvibes
1 15 3 hours ago
It's the universal law of compensation... you can't do epic s**t with basic thinkers. act in accordance to the level of blessings and success you want in your life. learn how to say no to anything that compromises your growth. #denial #selfdiscipline #epicmovement #ruthless #focused #determined #motivation #farfrombasic #moveforward #responsibility #accountability #takecontrol #positivenergy #morningvibes

@authorgillianstevens

authorgillianstevens
How often do you put on a happy face and deny feeling what you are really feeling? Emotion is energy in motion and wants to move. Don’t depress , suppress those messengers. Feel what is genuine,wants to be expressed and move through you.  Some days I just don’t feel like putting on a happy face and that is ok! Today I vow to express what  I feel and allow it to move through me.  What about you?
#feelings #honesty #emotions #energyinmotion #life #putonahappyface #feelyourfeelings #alignment #guelphauthor #exploretransformflourishbook #lifeslikethat #authenticity #denial #stuffing #letitout
0 5 4 hours ago
How often do you put on a happy face and deny feeling what you are really feeling? emotion is energy in motion and wants to move. don’t depress , suppress those messengers. feel what is genuine,wants to be expressed and move through you. some days i just don’t feel like putting on a happy face and that is ok! today i vow to express what i feel and allow it to move through me. what about you?
#feelings #honesty #emotions #energyinmotion #life #putonahappyface #feelyourfeelings #alignment #guelphauthor #exploretransformflourishbook #lifeslikethat #authenticity #denial #stuffing #letitout