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daily post: today....was rough. wild man has taken to screaming. screaming for attention, screaming in frustration, screaming for fun. and which came first? the screaming or my migraine? it's been just one of those days. but, i count myself lucky because he still took a nap. i did the finishing touches on my most recent painting for "voices of vulnerability: a chronicle of casual misogyny". and that is, after all, the focus of my self imposed residency. i'm going to finish the paintings i have planned & find a place for them to be seen. not only did i utilize nap time to work on my painting, but i worked a little on the side for some self love. check out the drawing in my stories for reference. i've always had a difficult relationship with my chest, and motherhood has simply amplified that. i've been drawing & doing some figure work lately. it's natural to use yourself as a model because, well, you're always around lol i used myself in "don't cause his eyes to stray" and unwittingly started unpacking some of the things i've struggled with over the years: guilt at being sexy, irritated because they get in the way, and just general discomfort in femininity. i feel like the more i model for myself, the more i can dig in to all of that, and learn to love myself and let go of guilt, shame, irritation, and discomfort of being a woman - a s****l and feminine creature.