4 hours ago
breakfast sandwich with merguez seitan, canellini chickpea egg, tomato chutney, smoked garlic aioli, and winter greens on an english muffin. kate is the #1
seitanist and it was so incredibly good.
i've described being heavily derealized and depersonalized as living life drunk--everything you swear you'll be able to remember turns into a pixeled blur of names and consequences you didn't think would play out because how can a person who doesn't feel, isn't real have consequences? here's another metaphor for you: i feel as though my 'self,' an outline traced on thin paper, has been slightly at best completely at worst separated its earthly counterpart printed on thick stock. my outline hasn't been aligned with its original self in a while. and i spend every day trying to rearrange the two sheets of paper, one flimsy and one solid.