A six month difference..
during the last 4 months i haven't seen any progress, but i kept pushing anyways, i spent a whole month doing nothing but complaining about how hard i work and never find results, i had many problems with my gym mates and captains and suddenly the gym became a need more than being a escape from life..
then i remembered that what keeps me going is consistency, i remembered how hard my journey was and still going, how my ups were so high and my downs were beneath any of your expectations walahy, i remembered every time i cried for the body i have now, i remembered how people's opinions made me feel, i remembered my parents and how hard they stood against this, i remembered that one person who changed the way i used to see myself, the person who changed me from inside, who made me so confident and happy, i remembered every time i wrote down "i'll prove all of you wrong!" i remembered how my old self struggled to make me happy and strong now, i remembered the tears and sweat and ...
it was the plot twist !! :')) it just clicked, i knew what's important and what isn't. i leared to care less about what people think of me and to care more about what i think about myself. i realized how far i've came. and i smiled because iam trupy proud of myself, i am proud of the person i've fought to become !
thankyou all for your sweet words bgd ! to everybody who replied, you guys are the main reason iam going :') ❤❤❤