12 hours ago
This will never get old
for the first time since starting landscape photography, i’ve found myself being more interested in other things. my personality is a very one-track kinda thing, so my entire life can basically be segmented into obsessive phases. drawing, music performance, music production, history, languages, multiple fictional worlds, bodybuilding and powerlifting, various pc and phone games, video, photo; every single one of these areas of interest have occupied 100% of my attention at one point or another. my attention cycles through them naturally as i become bored with one thing, then i move on to another subconsciously.
the thing is, it’s never been a problem. it’s kinda crazy but for any particular interest, i build myself up when i’m not currently into it. when i get back into it, i have an unearned confidence that tricks myself into actually being better than i was before. i was super into drawing as a kid but looking back, i wasn’t good. but for years i “knew” in my mind that i was good at it. i picked it back up and actually became decent at it through sheer accidental mental trickery.
anyway, last night i realized i hadn’t shot all week. i edited some shots on tuesday, but i’ve mostly been immersing myself in a hobby from a couple years ago. photography was actually just a side hobby for a while before starting landscapes. i almost quit, in fact. but as i was getting this post ready while out at sunrise, all the uncertainty about my interest photography disappeared. i looked down at this golden light washed on these lush, green mountains, then up at the rays breaking through the clouds in front of me. this will never get old.