95
529
2 weeks ago
This is me today.
.
before i put on my clothes for the day and applied my makeup. brightly lit bathrooms have always been nerve-wracking for me because of the temptation to skin-pick.
.
because of my
#dermatillomania it’s a natural response of mine but recently i have got so much better with it thanks to meditation š
.
things haven’t been the easiest though. my skin is clearly breaking out all over my body, but i’ve noticed one thing - i’m less worried about it.
.
i’m no longer seeing it as the end of the world because this is the ‘here and now’ not the ‘forever’. .
i would often forget that and freak out.š«
.
sometimes i can feel my mind trying to freak out - looking at my acne, scarring or weight-gain and trying so hard to cause me upset.š¤Ø
.
i could hate what i see, but i choose not to. i choose to love myself unconditionally instead because it’s what i deserve.āŗļø
.
and this is a journey, after all š£
.
it’s a test of the mindset.
it’s a reminder of what’s more important - how i look or how i feel?
.
yeah i may not like the fact my skin has broken out and it is extra challenging with
#compulsiveskinpicking but am i broken? no ā¤ļø
.
is my world still filled with so much love and joy? yes š„°
.
i don’t need to be anyone else’s kind of beautiful because i’m happy to have my own. there’s so much more to me than this. and i’m absolutely delighted that i’m starting to see it for myself, for the first time in my life ā¤ļø
.
.
#flawesome š