Therapy was rough.
had coffee with @biriikung on a park bench down by the lake. good times as always, despite having the growing feeling of being somehow disconnected from reality. very annoying, like a tooth ache turning into full bloom in the middle of the night. guess that's both therapy and the city.
i don't have many memories from my childhood, or the city from way back then, now there's the haunting dream-like sensation whenever i see some landmark i know i've seen when i was growing up there. just can't remember seeing it. slightly disturbing, and very fascinating.
i need sleep. or coffee. possibly both.
Anyone else have this problem?! this couldn’t be more accurate of my sleep last night...😔
my mind just hasn’t been shutting off lately, i’m either lying awake thinking of everything & anything or i fall asleep and then my dreams are crazy non stop all over the place which makes me exhausted when i wake up. #ineedsleep#tired#stillnotsleepingnormal#mydreamsaretiringmeout #iwantmybed
I'm still very groggy , even after drinking coffee 🙁 it feels awful - now i gotta do something i've been avoiding for 3 days. it's gonna take forever to catch up 😔 . instead of doing it i'm sitting here thinking and thinking and thinking #racingthoughts#blog#ineedsleep#mentalhealth#blog#lemonade
Seriously though! up late again. can’t get back into this routine. always end up feeling worse when i am not sleeping at night. got my lavender blowing on high next to my bed! meditation to follow. hopefully a good nights rest and no pain. sleep is way too important for people who suffer from chronic illness. it’s not just sleep! it’s what keeps us going. our bodies require way more rest than the average person. i am embarrassed to say this but if i don’t sleep 9 hrs i feel it. 8 isn’t enough, but with so much pain and disruptions through the night with my body, i am lucky if i get a good 4-5. i might be in bed for a lot of hours, but getting actual good sleep is difficult. me and sleep have a deep relationship. we need each other. not optional. the brain fog and fatigue i live with each day has a lot to do with my sleep. so the less i have the worse those things are. to be quite honest i can sleep and still feel like i’m going to fall on my face. it’s terrible. i’m never not tired. and that’s the cold, hard, truth. so wish we luck. #lupusawareness#lupus#autoimmunedisease#connectivetissuedisease#chronicpain#chronicillness#fatigue#sleep#rest#butyoudontlooksick#invisibleillness#poodlesofinstagram#dogsofinstagram#typo 💜