11 hours ago
When someone hurts you in a way you've never been hurt before, when someone breaks your heart. when someone leaves you all alone even after you've given them your all, all you're left with, is a hole in your chest where that someday used to be. a void that aches and burns in their absence every second of the day, and every day for months if not years. you forget what your life is about. you stop caring about yourself. hell, you don't even want to live. such is the severity of this pain. to cope, to numb the pain and escape the hurt, people often turn to alcohol, cigarettes or drugs. some become badboys or badgirls. some super cold hearted. some become exactly what they once hated. but notice what i just said, the word i used is "become". that means that it isn't who they really are. there is a part of them that is still human, that still wants to be happy, wants to experience the joys and wonders that life has to offer. there is a part of them that wants to live. that wants to love. but they've caged that part deep inside of them. so this may be for a specific beautiful woman i know, but the root problem is something that needs to be addressed. to anyone who has changed themselves into someone they're not, do not let this alcohol take away your senses, embrace the pain, it is that which gives happiness meaning. do not smoke so much, your lungs exist so that you can breathe in the fresh air when you're at a place filled with trees or nature. this body is something you are supposed to take care of. not destroy. i know how it feels, i've been there. i was this close to lighting up a cigarette but i didn't because i refuse to end up as a sad story. we are all going to die someday anyways, why f**k it up more and waste this wonderful life just because of a pain that is temporary. you deserve to live, beautiful human and you deserve to be happy. and finally, this is to everyone, don't judge or hate people based on their choices in life, they may seem bad, they may actually be evil, but humanity exists in all of us. it just takes the right person to bring that humanity back to life, for me, it was my love, anja. for you, it could be anyone, including your own self.