Am i okay?
do you ever ask yourself that?
this morning i did, and no, no i’m not. i thought of getting off instagram, hiding away from so many people that have helped and supported me.
will that help? no it won’t.
instead i’ll do the opposite, the hardest thing to do, talk about it.
something i’ve learnt over the years, although extremely difficult to do, it’s the better option than hiding away.
i’ve struggled with my mental health on and off since i was about 14, now at 22, with a 7 month old baby who has had problem after problem, who’s just had a huge surgery, he doesn’t eat himself or sleep, and then to top it all off we’re locked down in a worldwide pandemic~ all of this is causing it to suffer more than ever.
i try to bottle things up and be strong, to keep doing things on my own and it works for a while, but when things get this tough it all comes crashing down. things get ugly. i get ugly and my emotions get ugly. but i know how i should deal with them, so why do i end up here every time? i am learning, slowly. maybe next time i will get onto it sooner.
is it okay not to be okay? yes. yes it is. do we have to suffer silently? no. talk, talk, talk, speak up. the more it’s talked about the more someone else may have the courage to speak up too. it’s okay to feel like you’re going to snap, it’s okay to feel distanced from your child even though you love them so much, it’s okay to have your relationship affected~it doesn’t mean you don’t love them or they don’t love you, it’s okay to cry or get angry, it’s okay to walk out the door to have some time out, and it’s okay to break down.
talk to someone. before you’re feelings get out of control.
today i did, i talked to my husband, he’s all i have in person right now, usually i would never in a million years open up to him. but i did. and it made me realise, i’m not alone. and neither are you.
if you’re feeling down today, or tomorrow, or in however many days. talk about it. my inbox is always open. it’s okay not to be okay.
and tomorrow is another day 🤍