5 hours ago
Yesterday he had me questioning my faith in humanity. today i was sobbing tears of joy over his mere existence.
toddlers are quite adept at putting parents through the emotional wringer.
i can’t sugarcoat it, yesterday was rough. he’s been slightly out of sorts while on vacation, and it makes sense. he’s out of his element and his routine has been smashed to smithereens.
as parents we came close to our breaking point last night (see previous post on our mall food court dinner). today, however, he was a different boy. happy, laughing. my husband had to slip away for a few hours to work and it was just us two.
we played in the sand and swam in the ocean. he kept asking me to swim further out as he showed off his kicking skills.
he asked to take pictures, and when i pulled out the camera he wrapped his arms around me like he’d never let go.
when it was time to pack up he put all his sand toys back in the beach bag and tried to fold up the mat for me. he offered to carry things, and repeatedly told me, “mama, i help you!” it was like he knew that with my husband gone i needed the extra help. and he was going to step up and be the one to do whatever i needed.
we had lunch, just he and i. he sat happily, never fussed or screamed to get out of the highchair like he’s been doing lately. when he was finished with his food he asked, “excused, please?” it struck me then. we’re helping a tiny human become a good person. that matters.
even while he was stretching our patience, testing our limits and making us wonder if we were awful parents, we continued doing our best. today i was reminded why. why we keep going, even when it seems like nothing we do matters.
it all matters. they watch, listen. in good times and bad.
and they’re not only learning the alphabet and numbers, or to hold our hands and listen when we ask them to do something.
they’re becoming the person the rest of the world will be exposed to.
i’m glad to know that when it matters my child will be there for other people.
and that i’m not the horrid parent i feared i was yesterday. 😜
what special things has your child reminded you of lately?