3 hours ago
Today i’m 30 years old! and somehow 30 sounds so much older than 29. 🙈 my life looks nothing like i thought it would look like when i was 30. i had it all wrong anyway. i spent more time thinking about what i would be instead of who i would become. i focused on what my life would look like instead of what it would feel like. i thought about having the picture perfect life but not about building a life worth living. and i never even asked myself, is this what i really want or is this what the world tells me my life should look like?
thank god my picture of life didn’t come true, my picture was shallow. my picture was about fitting in, not finding what fits for me. my picture was about my plans and not about me trusting god’s plans. i still want some of the same things i wanted when i was younger, but now i know why i want them and know who i am (and love who i am) without them. the things i am not is not what defines me. the dreams that haven’t come to pass is not what defines me. i don’t have the 30 year old life i thought i’d have, but i have a life i love and one that is worth celebrating! and i hope to keep learning, growing and getting better everyday! 💜