in a minute
"i lived a lie just so i can see you smile.
sacrificed my self-worth just to make you see your worth.
loved you just so you can love. once more.
in love with heartbreak; got on my knee and proposed." "hate me or love me, please don't lie to me; i've been lied to way too many times and i wouldn't want anything less than the truth." i'm sorry, but i have always felt like i needed to act a certain way, and i can't stand being a person i'm not. i've been that person who draws the same character the same way for about 6 years now, and i've tried to satisfy everyone the best way i possibly could, but i'm afraid i have failed. failed because i'm not "good enough." i have always tried to be a better boyfriend (when applicable,) friend, brother, son, and person. all these roles i play in my everyday life intertwine to form what relevant authorities see (for a lack of a better word; girlfriend sees boyfriend, friend sees friend, parents see son, etc.;) me.
confession: i became an artist to mean something to people. it's a well-known fact that i am not in any way interested in art or good at art, but i drew because i wanted someone to appreciate things i could produce; i felt that art was the only thing i could do that could make others smile at me.
i'm not a bad person, but my art will seldom you an idea of who i am. the message might, but the art will do so rarely. (drawing by my ex-girlfriend lmfao. deadass wishing i had more content. this is rai as an inkling. didn't actually understand until way after this was drawn (in other words, way after we broke up.))
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