4 weeks ago
(took this pic exactly a year ago lmao) i’m not letting anyone who doesn’t fullfill my needs into my life anymore. i’m tired of letting people come and go, now i know what i want, and i know that i’ll get it somehow. i want people who will be up for any kind of adventure, i want people who will come over when i’m down, i want people who will be up for any party, people who like to have fun, i want people who care about the others, i want people who know who they are, and act as their truest self no matter what, not fake but nice people, i want people who will respect me despite my mental illness, people who understand that my problem will be living with me for some time, and sometimes i’ll need help, also, sometimes i’ll act like crazy, i’ll scream, i’ll say things that will scare the ones who love me the most, but someday i’ll learn to stop this. but until then, i need people who will respect me, who will value me as the strong woman i am, who will care about me and my past, because i am who i am now because of my past, and if you don’t care about my past then you don’t deserve to care about me now. i’ve been suffering from anxiety for 7 years now, people have been nothing but monsters to me, only a few have been true to me, those ones already know who they are. my teenage years have been nothing but shit, traumas, sadness, i’ve lost some of my loved ones, and a whole lotta bad shit. so i need people who won’t act like the bad people that has come through my life, who will be human, not monsters. care about yourself, care about your loved ones, care about me, know who you are, be up for the craziest s**t you’ll ever live, then you can stay with me in this crazy rollercoaster called life.