7 minutes ago
💢a long post about prep life 💢 •
i am so drained. i am tired. i am grouchy. i am mean. i miss going out and having a drink. i miss going out and eating whatever i want. i am irritable. and lastly, i’m just plain rude at times. i was expecting it to be tough, but not this tough. i started my prep on august 27th. competition is december 15th. there are a few positives to this so far - i have lost 13 pounds. (that was last weekend when i weighed myself.) so i might be down more. my body is starting to look more toned. with that it has increased my body confidence. which i struggle with terribly. i get so happy when i look in the mirror and i can see my abs, definition in my legs, and even striations in my shoulders. the only thing at this point that’s keeping me motivated is winning, and my boyfriend. i want to win. and i want to do this with him. prep life isn’t for everyone. it seriously tests how bad you want to win...