15 minutes ago
A majority of people would look at this photo & assume it is nothing more then a girl enjoying some chips by the river 🍟 & although i may strongly wish that were the case unfortunately this moment was not as simple as that. in fact it was anything but.
so what is the truth behind what was happening in this exact moment?
whilst having loved ones visit me here in perth may be something that fills my heart the most in this world, it also comes with a lot of challenges. i could go on forever about different challenges but to help you understand i’ll just give two examples. 1- eating out for more then one meal per day. 2- eating a lot of foods that i’d usually only allow after a day of restriction or excessive exercise.
this day i had gone out to a cafe for brunch with my best friend visiting from victoria. when dinner time came we then met my partner & headed down to watch the sunset by the river with fish & chips. 🌅 it wasn’t long before i was stuck in my own head battling with some excruciatingly loud eating disorder thoughts. i was an anxious mess who could not be talked down despite harris best efforts. i was no longer present nor was i enjoying the moment for everything it truly was. 😔 although my first thought would usually be to beat myself up about letting my eating disorder ruin what could of been the most amazing night. instead i’m going to draw focus towards the fact that i still ate it. the last time i seen my friend i most certainly would have brought my own meal down to the river & not even considered touching the fish & chips. so last night, i had a win & i choose to be proud of that. 🦋