11 minutes ago
I often wake up feeling there’s something i haven’t done that i was supposed to do. sound familiar?
and usually there is... *emails i haven’t replied to
*bills i haven’t paid
*friends i haven’t texted back
*directions i haven’t yet given
a constant stream of tasks, and just when i finish them, more crop up!
i don’t know about you, but where i go wrong isn’t that i’ve got “too much” to do... rather, it’s that i somehow expect once i complete that week’s to-do list, the slate will actually clear... my brain somehow thinks i will one day achieve the perfect balance of life where i will have completed all the tedium once and for all.
no matter how much i outsource. no matter how much i automate. no matter how much i pre-pay things... tedium is part of my life too.
peace doesn’t come from making it go away... rather, peace comes from releasing an expectation that it will go away - and getting ok with diligently facing the small mundanities in life in service of the bigger why of what i’m committed to.