2 days ago
Lately, i’ve been noticing myself having a hard time explaining my tattoo. what it means, why i did it, and how it represents my life. i always felt ashamed explaining it, and still do. if you’ve asked me in person what the tattoo meant, 9/10 i’ve responded with, “just google it.” it’s the easiest way for me to explain the whole meaning without feeling embarrassed or ashamed. but the more i think about it, the more i realize that it’s a beautiful story that displays my strength and that i should never feel bad for explaining why i have it.
for those that don’t know, there is a general meaning for the semi-colon tattoo, which was from a suicide awareness movement started back in 2013. “a semi-colon is used when an author could've chosen to end their sentence, but chose not to. the author is you and the sentence is your life.”
i tattooed this on myself as a symbol of being a suicide survivor, and as a promise to myself that it was the “last cut” i would ever do to purposely harm myself. long story short, i had a rough time in middle school and high school. i was constantly bullied every second of the day by people i thought were my friends. i didn’t have a safe place, and being at home wasn’t any better than being in school. it hurt to the point where it felt safer for me to just be dead. the whole process of me getting to that point was horrific. it took years of therapy, medicine, tears, and pain to get to where i’m at now mentally, but now i’m stronger than ever.
i guess i’m posting this because i’ve been feeling pretty down lately. i’m just trying to remind myself how far i’ve come and that i’m in such a good place in my life right now, and that it’s only gonna get better. not a lot of people will go public about the bad stuff going on in their lives, and i feel weird about posting this, but it’s a reminder to myself and others struggling that we all go through tough times. it’s all on you to decide if you wanna grow from it.🌹
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