33 minutes ago
absolutely beautiful 💙
"so this lyric is kinda really important to me. "stay with me for now". this is the hardest part for me to admit, i'm realizing right now in my therapy i don't like to rely on anyone. regardless of the time we've spent together or how much i love you. i'm trying to learn how to tell the people i care about most "please just stay with me right now." i know how busy everyone is successfully straddling young adult problems and stressors. you're all doing so great and often times i feel like i'm the biggest mistake, like i'm a joke of a human being and even though i hold this and a lot more self inflicted hatred, i sometimes just need a metaphorical or literal hand to hold. just to know i exist and i matter and i'm relevant even though i dont feel that way.
the challenge for me in this is just to be able to ask for company, even if it's just "for now" i don't think i can do forever with anyone yet...but i need a lot of "for nows" right now. i feel like apologizing for just acknowledging i need this but i won't and hope whoever reads this understands what i'm trying to convey. i'm just trying to advocate for myself to myself. the hardest part is convincing myself i'm worthy of any of this." #thevulnerabilitychallenge