6 minutes ago
Right now my life is made of these little things. little things that anyone could make fun of, while making fun of me (like my boyfriend did before leaving me. he told me that i wasn't enough for him and that i was not good at life, otherwise i would have already got a permanent employment like he did).
sometimes i feel sad about it. i just think to all the people that i know that have always given for granted the things i am still only hoping for: a life filled with love, money enough to live their passions, also they easily "heard their heart" while it was so hard for me to recognize what i wanted to do in life. at 30 it's difficult not to think that i am not good at life, that something in me is broken. but still i am moving forward. i know that colorful pens aren't everything, but each morning they make me smile. i know that it's a big problem that i don't have a permanent employment, but i feel so lucky that i found out what i need to do to be happy, because i know that i fought hard for this and that effort is always rewarded, unfortunately therevwas a moment in life where i lost this hope! i know that i can't smile like many people can do because they got amazing things in life, still i am amazed by my progress and each morning i wake up almost not believing where i am.
and even if it's hard to find the time to study now that i work to pay for food and for bills, i know that amazing things can happen to me if i find a way, my way, to go on, to study a lot again and still hope for the future i now see so clear the way i want! #study #studymotivation #studywithme #studytime #studygram #studying #stationery