4 days ago
This picture reminds me of a pivotal time in my motherhood.
as a stepmother, or as a stepparent in general, something that seems so small can be so big in our minds. naturally, we almost feel like an outsider simply because we have no dna in the mix. growing up my dad always reminded me to thank my step mom for things and tell her i loved her, and i did, and i did love her. i never thought much of it until i became a step mom myself and i told emerson i loved him one day out of habit, and he said “alright”. i’m not ashamed to admit, it p****d me off.
i had that “ah ha” moment because i realized why my dad had been reminding to do those small things over the years. those small things are so big to us. loving your parents is a part of life, loving your step parents seems like a choice. so when he said “alright” it cut deep. if i was his mom i would have brushed it off knowing that little brat loved me, but being his step mom, i take everything to heart still.
but those little moments also are what keeps me going. during our vacation this summer, we were all out swimming in the ocean, including my husband. emerson loves to swim and loves the ocean. a wave splashed up and got in his eyes, and we all know salt water in the eyes sings like a bee. he started jumping, and said “tia i need you, i need you” it almost brings tears to my eyes thinking back to the moment. his daddy was right there and he needed me. those 4 little words meant to much to me. at a time when he was in pain and needed help he wanted me, and all was right in my world again, because that’s all we ever want as a step parent right? to be needed.