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2 years. 2 whole years ago this photo was taken. it made me think about what i’ve learned about motherhood since then. i’ve got nothing magical for you...no answers to life’s hardest calling. in fact, most of the time i feel i am doing it all wrong. too much screen time, not enough time reading, too many french fries...and let’s not mention that paci habit, that while in public, you will see me claim i am trying to break her of but behind closed doors i don’t fight her over it. .
what i have discovered in these last 2.5 years is that it’s hard. and that “hard” is compounded by even more mom guilt, tons of parenting comparisons and even more “what if” questions over whether i’m doing enough, doing it right, loving too hard and disciplining too little. but beyond all the questions, doubt and comparisons is this love that truly knows no bounds. a love that stretches me beyond myself and past the constant flirtation with selfishness. .
so the truth is, i don’t know if what i’m doing is right or wrong. all i can do is pray for wisdom and the grace sufficient for the daily task of this beautiful journey called parenting. i do know that she is loved, so insanely loved. i also know that she is prayed for and prayed over every day. i think about the abused kids i used to advocate for that didn’t have either of those things in their lives and i suddenly realize that it doesn’t really matter if she still has a paci, drinks too much juice (it’s organic, so i get points there, right? 😉) or is sometimes allowed to point for what she wants rather than always using her words.
so, for all my mamas out there that are currently beating yourselves up for not being that perfect #pinterestmom, stop🛑 . it’s not the perfectly put together snacks, parties, outfits or staged photographs that make you the superhero that you are in your little ones eyes. it’s that extra hug where you squeeze your kiddo so tight, the booboo that only your kiss can make better, the lullaby that only you can sing, the backscratch that only you can give and that prayer that only comes from a mamas heart. those are the things that come from a mama who is definitely doing it “right”. 💗