I didn't start to dress masculine until i was about 17 years old after one of my ex girlfriends encouraged me to start buying men's clothes. until then though, i was consistently feminine. though i had short hair, i wore full face make up every day, dresses, jewelry, heels & more. i wasn't the stereotypical "story" when it comes to being transgender (no one is). throughout my young childhood i was always wanting short hair, to play rough boys sports, and to wear all boys clothes. i wanted to be a boy without knowing it, or maybe i even thought i was one, but one day a man in walmart referred to me as "son" in front of my mom & she broke down into tears saying how embarrassing it was that her daughter was being mistaken for a boy. i so badly wanted to make my mom proud of me so i forced myself into what i thought was the femme image she wanted for me. but even then i found myself living vicariously through masculine people i followed online. once i started to dress masculine in late high school, i rediscovered that. part of myself that i never knew i'd be able to express to the outside world again. i slowly over the next 3 years cut my hair shorter and shorter, dressing more masc, not wearing makeup, etc until one day i realized that there were things i wanted to be that i couldn't get without a doctors help. the day i realized i was trans. • i haven't known forever, i haven't known since i was born or a little tike. i've only known i'm trans for about 2 years & that's okay!! just because i lived happily as a woman for a good amount of time in my life doesn't negate my identity as a trans man. some guys know from day one, some guys don't realize until late in life. all of us are unique & there is no "one way" to be trans*. all of us are beautiful & valid. no matter when our journey starts/ed or how far we are in our transitions - you're apart of a wonderful community who loves & supports you!