A few years ago a friend of mine came to visit me. we went out for lunch in my local old fishing village and then went outside for a couple of drinks on the sea wall.
as we were speaking about how great it had been to catch up, my friend mentioned that the only disappointment of the day was that the tide wasn't in. i live at the end of the thames estuary therefore the when the tide is out, it leaves quite a large expansion of silt, mud and boats sitting at odd angles. i noticed this triggered me but i could also understand how she would have liked to have seen the sea in all its glory given that she lived inland. i put it down to me taking offense to someone bad mouthing my hometown and justified both our points of view in my own mind.
however, every time i saw the tide out, the comment that my friend made still played over in my mind. it raised uncomfortable feelings for me and i knew it ran deeper than different points of view. but i pushed it aside, not giving these feelings any time or reflection.
a couple of weeks ago, i was driving along the seafront, the tide was out and the conversation played out again. i'd had enough of this repetitive monologue going on in my head so i pulled over to give it some attention.
i looked out to the mud, silt, and quirky angled boats. i noticed the patterns which had been left by the current, the small rivers which were running in the deeper grooves. i saw the birds feasting on the meals that reside in the sea bed. i watched the sun glimmer on the pockets of puddles which had been left behind and i thought to myself 'this is beautiful, why didn't my friend get it?'. then i realised i had spent my life getting to know this expanse of water and what lies beneath extremely well. i don't see the mud and silt. i see it as the sea exposing its soul to me. she allows me to look at what goes on beneath the surface and i find beauty in the vulnerability of her revealing what some may class as imperfection.
of course my friend wasn't going to get it. she was only looking at the surface because she hadn't had the opportunity to understand the true beauty on a deeper level.
i then took this thought process.... cont’d ⬇️