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Today, i was talking with a coworker about style. i’ve never thought i’ve had a great sense of style, and as a result i’ve started to pare down so much because i lacked confidence in my own eye for design. i see how creatively another female puts together an outfit and i instantly compare it to my own wardrobe. the same goes with other means of design, such as photography, writing, etc. it’s tough avoiding those superficialities in our society and even tougher teaching ourselves how not to give them so much clout in the way we measure ourselves. it shouldn’t seem like we would let it carry so much weight as long as we’re genuinely expressing ourselves through these mediums, and yet even i caught myself saying, “i know it’s dumb, it probably shouldn’t even bother me.” and my coworker, who is a youthful 50-year-old woman said to me, “hey, i get it. i’ve felt the same way.” the issue is that some of us just lack that much faith in ourselves as human beings, so much so that it affects us even on levels that feel trivial by comparison to everything else we’re using as a means of evaluating our worth. the reality is that we can only be the person we were made to be. perhaps the reason why we “always come up short” is because these tools by which we measure ourselves—the act of measurement itself, in fact—is limiting our potential for growth. because that time we spend in comparison we could be spending in development, and that could be the currency that makes all the difference.