The pic of me on the left was taken 1 year ago, the moment my life changed while i was on vacation and was body shamed for having the body i had. that moment changed the rest of my life forever. for it was the moment i realized how important self love really is and i finally started to love me! in a moment that could have broke me, i found my strength.
the pic on the right is still me, on vacation this year. and just like last year, yes i was still made fun of again and...still i did not break.
the picture on the right is me now, after having liposuction on my legs and having about 20 pounds removed (just from my legs) and this me and my legs now getting ready to have the skin removed.
i wanted to share this to show what the difference was after lipo, but what i really wanted to share was a different transformation.
the real transformation between these pics is not the 20 pounds removed from my legs (although that is huge) but the change that happened inside of me. the change you cannot see. the change that made me go from getting made fun of, to a year of working on loving myself, to now, a moment where i can finally say i worked so hard to just love me!
this past year a lot has changed, maybe not with my body but a lot inside of me with the way i feel and think about myself.
i have been so used to people commenting on my weight loss, focusing on the number on the scale, worrying about how my body is changing on the outside, that i did not focus as much on what was happening on the inside.
i no longer look for the validation of others, i do not feel the need to justify myself or my body and i do not wonder if people will like me or accept me. i am not perfect at this- i’m human. and i am still working on all of that. but it has been a transformation to even be aware of this, work on this, and know as long as i love me and i am doing what’s best for me...that’s what truly matters. to me, this is the transformation that these 2 pics show.
it’s not always about weight loss or the physical changes you can see.
the biggest changes may happen inside of us- changes that the scale, our size, or the opinions of others can never show. this is me.