1 hour ago
Hello, my name is corazòn you can call me "cora" for short if you like i'm 18 year old i like to sketch, read, write and watch anime. i suffer with a lot of health issues i also drop out of high school from those issues i really put myself down a lot make myself feel less like a person but more like a freak. i grew up with no friends been alone since 1st grade i didn't realize i was alone until i was 17 because i start to think about my past and realize i never spoke to anyone since i was 14 years old i was mark as a weird creepy person who was all ways alone never spoke to anyone because i didn't know how to make friends i was that type of person that wanted attention from everyone wanted to be popular and have a high social status be pretty and whatever.....ect. i live in a neighborhood i have no friends here i honestly don't step outside at all or to see the sunset i make my own life miserable everyday every hour every second i lock my self in my room to my desk and bed but of course i do clean my home since its my responsibility and there really nothing to do but clean to keep my mind from killing itself every second . i don't really have a life of hope in myself anymore sometimes i don't believe in myself.l honestly believe me i try to make myself believe i can make it in life a became someone or to be use of some short i really hate feeling useless and not good enough. i can't cook i'm not smart i can't do anything right i only cause trouble in my family i just hope they know how much it hurts me seeing them hurt because they decided to have a child that brought nothing in life but a high school drop out with mental health issues and i just want to help them in a way i want to be a child they can be proud of but to me it's seem impossible ...... well sorry if that made you feel pity for me but i wasn't trying to make you feel that way about i just showing you who i am. . . . .